Today marks my 2nd anniversary with Chix in Training! I am a bit of a sentimental nut, so yes, this is a big deal to me and I proudly celebrate it just like other important moments in my life. It's hard to believe that two years have come and gone. It amazes me what I have become since I was that girl in lime green laying with her feet in the air. It was my hope and belief that on this day I would also hit another major weight loss milestone. I had a goal to be at a 100 lbs lost by this day, but that hasn't happened. In fact, I have been in a weight loss plateau for almost three months. I have been losing and gaining the same 4 lbs. This is very frustrating to me! It is testing every bit of faith and belief I have in myself and this process. Long ago, when I came to this point, I would become so frustrated that I would quit and slowly start to fall back into the deep dark hole that I had started to pull myself out of. I would be lying if I said these feelings of wanting to quit haven't arose, because they have. What makes it different this time, than every time before, is that I am mentally and spiritually stronger than I ever have been. So when the devil sits on my shoulder and tells me "You have hit your limit, Jenn. This is as good as its gonna get!", God swoops in and whispers in my ear "I know the plans I have for you. Trust in me and you will succeed!" I then continue on fighting for what I want. I go on believing that this will soon pass and the memory of this trying time will only be a blur.
Instead of celebrating this anniversary with 100 pounds lost, I am going to celebrate and be thankful for all the little things that I've achieved on this journey. Little things that I tend to overlook and take for granted. First, is all the exercises that I can do now, that two years ago seemed impossible. The one that stands out in my mind the most is a crab walk. Before I could barley lift my rear end off the ground and this week I thought to myself..."man this too easy". I am continually amazed at how I can push my body further and further, how well my heart recovers and how much I love the feeling of sore muscles! I celebrate and am thankful for being comfortable in my own skin. I have started to repair the low self esteem that I carried with me most of my life. I am proud of what I have become and look forward to using it to help others who feel the same way as I once did.
Finally I celebrate all the love and friendships I have gained on this journey. I think this is actually one of the better things I have received from this experience. Life just would not be as sweet without all of those wonderful people in it.
It has been an awesome 2 years full of challenges, triumphs and lots of laughter. So many things have changed and will continue to change. I truly love Chix in Training. It's one of the best things to ever come into my life. Like at most birthdays and celebrations, I blow out the candle on my imaginary cake, making a wish that this time next year I will be celebrating being at goal for 6 months and starting a new time in my life where I put into practice what I know and help to change someone else's future. I look forward to year 3!
