How Great is Our God!

There was a point in my life that I did not have a good relationship with God. I was very angry with Him, disliked Him, almost hated Him and yes I know hate is a very strong word. But at that time in my life that’s how I felt. I was frustrated with the decisions He had set for my life during that time. I disagreed with how my life was going and was mad at Him for not giving me what I thought I deserved.  I felt I played all the right cards, followed the rules and therefore what I believe should come next in my life should rightly be given to me. That was not the case and I lived many years angry at Him for it and even more upset with Him when He gave others what I felt I deserved as well.

Finally, one day, not long ago, I decided it was time to have a talk with God. I asked Him to forgive me for the way I was acting and told Him that I now understood that He had a plan for me and no matter if it was how I felt it should be, it was the best way because He loved me. From that day on, I lived in peace with the way my life was going.

This year has been a true example of how life can be so beautiful when you realize God is in charge. This year has been a big learning experience for me. I have learned so many things about myself and learned to open up to and love the God who has always loved me. Because of that I have been blessed beyond measure. Without the love He shows me everyday I would have never achieved all the things that this year has brought. Many many times this year I was remind of what is possible with God. Every time I stepped on the scale, every time I ran a race and every time I felt I could no longer do this journey. He was there.

One very early Friday morning, I was driving to work down Route 130. It was still dark and in the corner of my eye I saw a shooting star.  Out loud, I said " Star Light, Star Bright, the first star I see tonight, I wish I may, I wish I might, have this wish I wish tonight. Dear God, please bless us with a family when you see fit.

I knew He was listening because He was always listening, but I guess I didn't realize that maybe that early morning it was just He and I in that moment.

A few months ago I witnessed a miracle. A miracle that I NEVER thought would come and waited 13 years for. God had answered my prayer that day. He decided it was time for me to be a mother. All lives given by God are a blessing but this was truly a miracle. A body unable to have a child was suddenly blessed with a little life after so many years.  A testament that ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE WITH GOD!